I dreamt big... I dreamt high... I dreamt of being the shooting star and conquer the world !!!
My Dad is a mechanical engineer and what I always wanted to become is just like him... Poor young me didn't know that cloning is not possible... But of course, I thought the day I become an engineer, I will suit up to go for meetings and my knowledge will provide a dynamic direction to the entire project. I thought to be flying from one place to another to represent my valuable contribution and come home to my family feeling extremely proud of the way I handle my professional and personal life... My Dad... My Hero... An Engineer !!
Science was always on my mind... Physics to Chemistry to Maths to Biology... I struggled hard to relate every single theory to the real world and developed the logic for all the super powers from the superhero movies available at that time... I agree they were not accurate but for much of my self-appreciation !!
With a small mark of God's presence on my forehead, I appeared for most of the competitive exam and realised for the first time in my life that all those self-invented theories and practical had no relation with my grades and I need to work more on my skills of qualifying the exam... Somehow I managed to get admitted to a degree college without any donation... mark my words that was pretty much an achievement at the time when you don't have those perfect grades... I still fail to understand the provision of donation and to make a student feel more like a charity at the first step towards reality... It kills your self-confidence and misleads your growth as a person... I owe a big hug to my Dad's Principle which saved me from that mental trauma.
Finally a BE graduate with a good job offer in my hand I walk out of my college with chin up and nose flaring somewhere... As soon as I thought, here starts my journey of a tick-tock professional lady... As soon as I started dreaming of being the next Indira Nooyi or Chanda Kochhar my joining was delayed for 3 months... I still didn't loose my confidence till it was delayed for a year and my adventure ride began right there... IT ( Information Technology ) an abbreviation misunderstood as "Income Tsunami" by the entire society... I was right there with my tiny bag of dreams packed tight to take a flight... Yes ! you tend to rhyme during your bad days... I am no exception !!!
Bang-Bang !! That was my first face to face with the word recession or you can call it the world of recession... The HR of the company I was selected in dumped me by asking me unofficially to move on in job...I was not even given proper time to shed my tears and collect the broken pieces of my heart... And the fight to select the right course for a job began... The struggle to appear in every single interview started... The juggling between the public transport and money in the pocket picked up the pace... This all ended up after months together with an IT job which of course didn't pay me well but gave me a kick start... Here I was with my dream coming true but significantly narrow horizons achieved so far... I learned it hard way that there is no end to growth but there is also few hidden objects in economy who will keep pulling you back for some reality checks in life... This was just the beginning of an infinite loop in which the main parameters were Appraisal, Promotion, Salary Hike, Onsite...The balancing act of all these parameters were on its full swing between me and the representative of the organization named "Managers" when suddenly I hear again the dark days are coming back... It looks like some Harry Porter movie where "Dobby" warns of the upcoming dangers ... And we are restlessly waiting for "Dumbledore" to guide our hero, "Harry" to protect us with his magical extra ordinary abilities...I get calls from my friends with the worry to loose the existing job... The concern of the dependents in the family... I hear people being asked to leave the organisation for the lost project deal... I hear the cut-them-down targets are more those who are paid for their necessity than ones for luxury... Even if we are quite aware of the principle of industry maturity and investment saturation we don't keep our seat belt tight enough to let go the turbulence... We sit here in our own space like "Muggles" from the same movie series who have not prepared themselves to protect oneself from the dangers of the magical world. Unfortunately with the years passing by, I along with my organization forgot the importance of the parameters like Upgradation of skills, Application of technology, Contribution to country economy, Creation of product, Generation of employment that would have led both of us to the final product we were always looking for... Days have changed, people have settled down, aspirations have raised, industry has grown but where is that direction to make a difference lost... where is the enthusiasm to apply the knowledge for leaving a mark vaporized... We face the stress of being in a monotonous life... We face the pressure to rise above the rest... We face the hidden competition of who is marked where in the globe... We have unknowingly entered the life that has more insecurities than confidence!! The life where we have time to go to the therapist on weekend but fall short of annual leaves for family get together !! The life where we are spending more time on roads than on the dinning table !! The life where we have lost the charm of evening tea over morning anxiety !! The life where we have surrendered to the uncertainity over self caliber !!
My Dad is a mechanical engineer and what I always wanted to become is just like him... Poor young me didn't know that cloning is not possible... But of course, I thought the day I become an engineer, I will suit up to go for meetings and my knowledge will provide a dynamic direction to the entire project. I thought to be flying from one place to another to represent my valuable contribution and come home to my family feeling extremely proud of the way I handle my professional and personal life... My Dad... My Hero... An Engineer !!
Science was always on my mind... Physics to Chemistry to Maths to Biology... I struggled hard to relate every single theory to the real world and developed the logic for all the super powers from the superhero movies available at that time... I agree they were not accurate but for much of my self-appreciation !!
With a small mark of God's presence on my forehead, I appeared for most of the competitive exam and realised for the first time in my life that all those self-invented theories and practical had no relation with my grades and I need to work more on my skills of qualifying the exam... Somehow I managed to get admitted to a degree college without any donation... mark my words that was pretty much an achievement at the time when you don't have those perfect grades... I still fail to understand the provision of donation and to make a student feel more like a charity at the first step towards reality... It kills your self-confidence and misleads your growth as a person... I owe a big hug to my Dad's Principle which saved me from that mental trauma.
Finally a BE graduate with a good job offer in my hand I walk out of my college with chin up and nose flaring somewhere... As soon as I thought, here starts my journey of a tick-tock professional lady... As soon as I started dreaming of being the next Indira Nooyi or Chanda Kochhar my joining was delayed for 3 months... I still didn't loose my confidence till it was delayed for a year and my adventure ride began right there... IT ( Information Technology ) an abbreviation misunderstood as "Income Tsunami" by the entire society... I was right there with my tiny bag of dreams packed tight to take a flight... Yes ! you tend to rhyme during your bad days... I am no exception !!!
Bang-Bang !! That was my first face to face with the word recession or you can call it the world of recession... The HR of the company I was selected in dumped me by asking me unofficially to move on in job...I was not even given proper time to shed my tears and collect the broken pieces of my heart... And the fight to select the right course for a job began... The struggle to appear in every single interview started... The juggling between the public transport and money in the pocket picked up the pace... This all ended up after months together with an IT job which of course didn't pay me well but gave me a kick start... Here I was with my dream coming true but significantly narrow horizons achieved so far... I learned it hard way that there is no end to growth but there is also few hidden objects in economy who will keep pulling you back for some reality checks in life... This was just the beginning of an infinite loop in which the main parameters were Appraisal, Promotion, Salary Hike, Onsite...The balancing act of all these parameters were on its full swing between me and the representative of the organization named "Managers" when suddenly I hear again the dark days are coming back... It looks like some Harry Porter movie where "Dobby" warns of the upcoming dangers ... And we are restlessly waiting for "Dumbledore" to guide our hero, "Harry" to protect us with his magical extra ordinary abilities...I get calls from my friends with the worry to loose the existing job... The concern of the dependents in the family... I hear people being asked to leave the organisation for the lost project deal... I hear the cut-them-down targets are more those who are paid for their necessity than ones for luxury... Even if we are quite aware of the principle of industry maturity and investment saturation we don't keep our seat belt tight enough to let go the turbulence... We sit here in our own space like "Muggles" from the same movie series who have not prepared themselves to protect oneself from the dangers of the magical world. Unfortunately with the years passing by, I along with my organization forgot the importance of the parameters like Upgradation of skills, Application of technology, Contribution to country economy, Creation of product, Generation of employment that would have led both of us to the final product we were always looking for... Days have changed, people have settled down, aspirations have raised, industry has grown but where is that direction to make a difference lost... where is the enthusiasm to apply the knowledge for leaving a mark vaporized... We face the stress of being in a monotonous life... We face the pressure to rise above the rest... We face the hidden competition of who is marked where in the globe... We have unknowingly entered the life that has more insecurities than confidence!! The life where we have time to go to the therapist on weekend but fall short of annual leaves for family get together !! The life where we are spending more time on roads than on the dinning table !! The life where we have lost the charm of evening tea over morning anxiety !! The life where we have surrendered to the uncertainity over self caliber !!
We are the Engineers lost in the World of Engineering !!
Well written..
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